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I promised myself that I would write in this everyday...well at least everyday I have access to the internet. Yesterday I had a sick baby.Today I have one better thou fussy baby but in exchange I got 2 sick big kids and 1 sick mom! So off to bed for me...trying to sleep as much as I can while my superhero ,aka my husband, watches Ms. sicky, Mr.pukey,and Little cranky.
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tecnology driving me crazy

Since I live across the country from my family and dearest friends the Internet is invaluable.Without it I can guarantee that we would not remain as closely connected as we are. I can email my grandfather in California without having to calculate time difference.I can see pictures of my best friends expanding family without having to worry about the expense of her making me prints and I can post home videos so that my mother and siblings can watch my children grow. Today technology is not my friend.I have attempted to load things all day and without fail I keep getting error messages! Soooo frustrated!

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happy

Life is far too short to spend even a moment unhappy.



My daughter Madison and son Marcus.

Hand me my apron honeybunny!

Mrs. Housewife is going to plant some bulbs and craft and bake a cake and if there is time left after that I'm going to clean!!!!

It all seems so unreal. Don't get me wrong I love gardening and when the bulbs flower I will relish in their beauty every day until they wilt.I love to craft, creating something from nothing makes me feel good. My family loves what I bake,and I love treating them to some sugary gooey goodness. No matter how much I try to pretend I like to clean I so do not,but I do love a tidy house.

It just seems sometimes that I'm watching some other me do these things as if there is no way I could actually be this person referred to as mother or wife...

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remembering bonaventure

A few of my favorite shots from a while back taken at Bonaventure Cem. in Savannah,GA.

did you say door prizes?!?

Little miss patriot went to an army wife conference last night.In reality I just needed some time away from the kids and needed to do something for myself,it was free,dinner was included and there was a promise of tons of door prizes;that was enough to hook me. It surprisingly was a lot more fun than I would have imagined. I've been a military spouse for nearly a decade now and was sure that these "experts" would have the same old info to try to spoonfed me...not taking into consideration that we are not all tender 18 year olds newlyweds, possibly with a child(singular,) and a soldier strait out of AIT...thankfully they far exceeded my expectations.It was fresh,full of laughter, and was very informative even to a old pro like me! Walked away fulfilled from the table discussions,informed from the presentation,full from the dinner, with 3 bags worth of goodies!
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Here is a link to their group:
http://www.armywifenetwork.com/ (Can't seem to make it clickable)

Hurry up Spring we are ready!

me.

This has to be the 100th or so time I said I was going to start one of these...lets see if this time it sticks!

When I describe who I am I always feel conflicted on what to say and where to begin.

Should the beginning be the beginning? Do you need to know where I'm from to appreciate who I am? What of my family and upbringing, what of that is of interest and what is just fluff? The Colorado girl wants to yell from the mountain tops how she loves where she is from and the oldest child of nearly a half dozen like things to be chronological...but is mentioning those things first placing where I started above where I'm at.

Do I start out with declaring that I am an army wife? Do I really want the first thing people to know about me to be his carer? Don't get me wrong I'm very proud of him and all that he dose.The dutiful 1950's esq housewife persona couldn't ask for more and loves to brag about my Mr. The patriot wants to remind you that you read about you heroes in books,mine walks thew my door regularly! The outspoken feminist doesn't like the idea of being defined by her husband's career.

Should I mention that I'm a mother of three Do I mention their challenges or do I present them as flawless? Where dose the step son and the angel baby fit in? I am torn between the thought that if I don't mention them that it comes off that they are meaningless to me,which they are by no means so, but am afraid that by including them that I am inviting questions or explanation I may not be ready to give. By starting off with the kids dose it somehow mean that my identity as a individual comes after my title of Mom? The mommy within with her finger paint,tummy time,and fresh baked cookies urges me to launch off my parenting philosophy's and smile brightly as I tell you I am a happy SAHM. The would-have-been, hopefully one day will be career woman wants to clue you into her dreams outside these four walls.

Would launching into a detailed account of my hobbies,habits,and hopes seem self absorbed? How balanced a picture do I try to show? Do you want to know things I dabble in or only what I'm good at? Do I lay it all on the table flaws and all? Dose starting with what I want out of life in the future diminish all that I have in the present? My inner artist wants to show you her latest masterpiece,but is unsure if you "get it". The wannabe dose not want me to even mention her nor dose she want me to mention the glass of wine she is drinking 'cause she is sure you won't approve In her own little world the dreamer has her head in the clouds.

I'm more lost than when I started so I'm just say: Hi, my name is Heather.